What Do I Do Now?

Three short weeks ago I started a new job as an administrative assistant at a non-profit for disabilities.  It was a lot better than my previous job as cashier at a grocery store but for some reason, I still wasn’t happy with it.  I felt overwhelmed, under-qualified, out-of-place.  It didn’t feel like home.  It didn’t feel like I was meant to be there.  Everyday I was fearful of doing something wrong and getting fired.  I felt like I was walking on a floor that would give way at any moment.  I couldn’t get comfortable there.  Today, my boss took me into her office and told me that she was going to let me go.  She said I was very intelligent, but it simply wasn’t working out.  She believed I wasn’t happy at the job and she needed someone who would be, plus the executive director stated that the job would be changing and they needed someone more qualified than me.  I had no chance.  So here I am, a woman with autism, no job, no idea what to do next.  It hasn’t really hit me how far down shit creek I am because I haven’t even gotten my first paycheck.  I have already applied for unemployment.  I think because of my recent diagnosis with autism, I will qualify for disability, so I’m going to apply for that too.  I am at a loss at what to do next.  I have been applying for jobs everywhere today because I NEED SOMETHING.  Unemployment is only going to get me $175 a week and that is not enough to pay rent and cable and car insurance.  I’d sell some of my stuff, but I don’t have anything of value to sell (except my computer, but I need that for school, and my car but I need that too).
Anyway, that is where I am at now.  I believe things will work out for the best. They have to.  I also believe this happened for a reason, but I don’t know what the reason is quite yet.


2 responses to “What Do I Do Now?

  1. I know you will find the perfect job. God doesn’t give you more than you can handle so hang in there, the best is yet to come honey we Love you

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