For the last few days I have been experiencing a lot of anxiety. Right now, I am very anxious and I don’t know how to get rid of it. I took a Valium (that I use for my back) in hopes that would calm me down, but it didn’t. The main reason I am so anxious lately is because I am very worried about one of my TV shows not coming back for a 7th season. One of the actors has been tweeting acting like it is the last season, but she could be just trying not to jinx it or she’s playing us. Either way, it is making me freak out. I know it is just a TV show, but it’s one of the few things that makes me happy anymore. I would be devastated if it does not go on for another season. I feel like I need at least one more season and then I’d properly feel like I could let it go if it needed to. This limbo ABC has put the viewers in though is making me feel really uncomfortable. I told my mom about my fears and she told me that I really need to get a life outside of the fantasy world I live in. It is true that I live in a fantasy world. I use it as an escape from my mediocre life.
Tomorrow, I’m probably going to go to urgent care and see if they can prescribe me some anti-anxiety meds until I can find a psychiatrist. I have to work (aka do computer training) until 5pm and then I’ll go after that, then I’ll go to my parents’ house for a bit since I haven’t seen them in awhile.
Because of my anxiety I have not eaten a lot today and haven’t wanted to either. I did eat a sandwich about an hour ago and my anxiety went away for a bit, but now it is back and I don’t know how I am going to get to sleep tonight. I worry way too much.