I feel…better?

I quit my job 3 weeks ago and while my knee has not gotten better despite not standing on it anymore, my mood has improved.  My regular shrink upped my dosage of Lexapro to 30mg from 15mg the same day I quit my job, so I don’t know if my elevated mood is because of the meds or because I am not working.

On Wednesday I started a day treatment program in Chanhassen.  It’s a bit of a trek to do every day, but I feel that having something to get up for everyday at a normal hour has helped me too.  Today I was exhausted before group and really wanted to just skip.  I knew I could get away with skipping too because my mom was out of the house all day.  When I thought about skipping though, I had a thought pop into my head that the therapist said yesterday, “Integrity is what you do when no one is looking.”  It struck a chord with me because I haven’t been living with integrity.  I managed to get up for group and get there 15 minutes early too.  I feel quite proud of myself for that.

I want to do some writing tonight, but I am feeling really tired, so I think I might just read a bit and then head to bed.

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