I am a fearful person and I wish I wasn’t. I want to do so much with my life, but my fears keep me back. The ironic thing is that I fear doing things but one of my greatest fears is not doing what is important to me.
My birthday is tomorrow (June 4th) and I will be turning 29. As a teenager when I imagined how my life would be now, I thought I would be in a completely different place. I am not exactly happy with where I am, but I am going to change that. My plan is to spend the next year until I turn 30, doing things that scare the crap out of me. I want to go outside my comfort zone and be the person who isn’t afraid to live. I want to be whom I’ve always meant to be. I’ve started a list of things that I want to accomplish this year that I find scary. Some of them are as simple as saying “hi” to a stranger and some are as difficult as standing up for myself or admitting my wrongs. I want to do this and I am going to. Here is a complete list of things I am going to do:
Scary Things I Can Do
- Go to a restaurant alone
- Go into an interview not afraid of failing
- Talk to someone I don’t know
- Sightsee alone
- Admitting wrongs
- Go somewhere I haven’t been
- Compliment someone I don’t know
- Compliment someone I do know
- Go technology-free for one day
- Go technology-free for two days
- Swim in a lake
- Pay for someone’s meal
- Meet one of my online friends
- Run
- Say hi to a stranger
- Apologize
- Ride public transportation
- Advocate for myself
- Advocate for Willie
- Admit my faults
- Not believing the opinion I have of myself
- Interview someone for an article (in person or over phone)
- Volunteer
- Stand up for myself
- Tell someone my weight
- Go on a date
- Ask someone out
- Say no when I really mean it
- Buy food without caring what others think
- Teach someone something
- Babysit
- Hang out with a kid(s)
- Do yoga
- Go to an exercise class
- Take an art class
- Try out for a band
- Run/walk a 5K
- Go to a club/bar alone
- Say I love you to someone who isn’t Willie
- Get my writing critiqued by writers
- Go Geocaching