I have an appointment next Thursday with my general practitioner to get me on some anxiety meds. It seriously can’t come soon enough. I am feeling really anxious right now because I had some caffeinated pop with my meal at Red Robin and that always makes me on edge. I generally avoid caffeine because I don’t need it to get energized. I have never had coffee and plan on never having it, but pop is another story. Whenever I have caffeinated pop it makes me feel really anxious and I have a difficult time settling down. In addition to the caffeine problem, I am worried about going to work tomorrow. I have been anxious before work every time I go in. It gets so bad that I feel sick and very uncomfortable. I usually feel fine when I get to work, but the anticipation of going gets me really upset. I just need to remember that I am fine once I get there, but the anxiety tends to overshadow that thought and I still continue to feel bad. I see my therapist on Thursday as well and in addition I see my autism counselor so I will have a full day of appointments.
Lately, I have been thinking of going for a Bachelor of Science degree in either Biochem or biology, but after I graduate with my writing degree. I still really want to work in forensics and the thing that is holding me back is the fact that I am scared to go for it. I’ll be deeply in debt, but I think it will be worth it if I am happy. I just need to get myself to do it.
Alyssa with Autism 